Have had enough of hearing of how I should learn to be less sensitive.
Might anyone know how I could go about doing that?
Maybe I need to watch a bunch of people being murdered….or watch a war right in front of me.
Or freeze my heart. Numb myself with unnecessary psychiatric medications.
Start pushing old people when they walk too slow.
Kick little kids that cry too much.
Tell strangers to go fuck themselves.
I am sensitive damnit!
I have been since I was a kid. I hated grass stains, milk, E.T., boy bands, and terrible blonde-dye jobs.
I have been able to cry at the drop of a hat since I was old enough to read: age 3.
I like the theatre, lingerie, comedy, loud families, tiaras, makeup, sex toys and role playing (not as a kid, thanks), big boxes of expensive chocolate, buying people presents, dance shows, and other THEATRICAL AND GRAND GESTURES OF LOVE AND EMOTION!!!
Bring on the shakespeare! Bring on the intensity! Break out the capital letters! The exclamation points!
I am sensitive. I cannot be taught to be different.
I have been abused, lied to,kicked, assaulted, mugged, and more.
I have been alone, afraid, broke, victimized, disconnected, and still…I cannot make myself some cold and unempathetic person.
I cannot be less sensitive.
So for those of you who may ask me to do so, here is my suggestion:
Go fuck yourself.
And I say this in the most sensitive way possible, of course.
A Woman who loves being who she is: intense sometimes, other times not, but definitely never boring.