It’s been almost 14 months since my ex-husband and I separated. You’d think that in a year’s time, I would’ve fully accepted that not only will I be divorced but that our daughter will be a child of divorce. Yet, I haven’t fully.
It’s not to say that I haven’t had months and weeks of time in which I felt confident and sure about our decision (we chose to divorce together — one of us didn’t leave the other) or that I think it’s the wrong choice, but there are still weeks and days in which I think getting a divorce is the wrong thing to do.
I wonder if I will ever feel “right” about it. I’ve read and written a ton of essays on divorce and nothing could’ve prepared me for how I felt when I lost our marital home.